Crooked Old Man

A man with one good leg was limping down the street while dragging his bad leg and supporting himself with a cane. I could hear the sound of his foot scraping against the pavement from inside my house. Scrrrrr, Scrrrrr, Scrrr... closer... closer. I was petrified, so escaped out the back door of my house as he approached the front door. He knocked on my door, but I had already left. The sound of his foot dragging lingered.
Suddenly I stopped running... "Why was I running away in the first place?" I hesitated before deciding to go back. My inner conscience was fighting against me... "Get away... RUN!!!" I ignored it, and went back. I took the long way, and met the man at the end of my driveway. At first I was suspicious... but his gentle eyes eased my nerves. Guilt spread over me as I realized... "This man is disabled, what if he needed my help?"
I asked the man "Is there anything I can help you with?"
I lead him back to my house and noticed that the front door was wide open. I hesitated again... and ignored it.
I helped the man inside.
As soon as he was inside... the gentleness suddenly left his eyes and his expression became hard and dark. His strength was not that of a disabled man as he swung the door shut and threw his cane."
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I've been living in a fantasy world. On many occasions, I've ignored that inner voice... I knew something was wrong, it felt wrong and I brushed it off. I wanted to trust everyone, and I didn't want to believe that anyone could ever hurt me.

The message: Trust your instincts, and listen to that inner voice that often gets ignored. Who knows... it could one day save your life.

Race Against Time

I wake up remembering a number... In my dream I have a limited amount of time to figure out the meaning. I remember feeling anxious like it was a matter of life and death and was on the verge of lunacy.... The number was 1111.

It was a race against time. I remember vivid details, such as leaping out of the way of a transport with 1111 in huge print on it's side... and searching for a ticket with the 1111 number... In my frantic state my mind was boggled.. WHAT IS IT???? A DATE? A TIME? A MESSAGE? A PHONE NUMBER? ADDRESS? The dream was a puzzle, and I was missing all of the pieces.
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Since then... I became aware of the number 1111 in all of it's forms. It almost seemed as though my eyes were drawn to the clock frequently at 11:11. I began to wonder... question the meaning of it. Is there meaning? I gave up. Thought it to be just coincidence.

When I was in college... just for sheer stupidity, I took it a step further. I Went to google and typed in 1111. The top link was a page with the heading... "The 1111 Explanation". My jaw dropped. Others are seeing it to?? It is believed that the numbers are signs, that angels use to communicate. To be aware of your surroundings, possible changes you need to make, or a new door that is opening for you.

Fountain Overflow

More often than anything else, I have dreams of water. In this particular dream there was a large fountain in the center of town that began to overflow more water than it could ever hold. Everyone ran frantic, to climb to higher ground.

Symbols: Fountain, overflowing water
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Fountain: Water that is contained in any way points to an unconscious desire to exert emotional control, especially if the container is man-made. A fountain, for example, could represent a desire to be emotionally expressive, but in a way that is manageable and pleasant.

Water that overflows is just a representation of daily day problems that have gotten out of control

Tsunami

I have recurring dreams of tsunami's. Each dream is so completely different, but the outcome is always the same. As exhausted, worn and terrified I am trying to outrun the gaping jaws of death that hunger for me like a great white shark ready to swallow me whole... I am untouched, and protected.

I see the wave in the distance building up to soaring heights as tall as skyscrapers, and I am held in place with fear. As my legs finally respond to my brain's orders, it is too late. I turn to face it, and it simply washes over me or never reaches me.

In last nights dream, a tsunami had struck and rhe room I was in quickly began to fill with water. I broke through the window just in time, as the water reached the ceiling. It was then that I discovered that I could fly. As far as the eye could see there was water. I had no idea which direction was land. Searching frantically for any sign of life, I noticed some roof tops poking through the waters surface. I looked for survivors, there were few... they were headed in the wrong direction, heading out to sea. I did my best to redirect them, as with my flying power I could soar high and see land far in the distance, but they would not listen.

As soon as I reached dry land, the wave seemed to be right behind me before I could even catch my breath.
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Tsunamis: Dreams about tsunamis warn of feelings of being engulfed by powerful, destructive, overwhelming emotions.It's believed that tsunami dreams may also point to a time of great emotional upheaval due to a waking life situation that feels overpowering and uncontrollable.

I'll never be normal again

I had no memory of the accident. None whatsoever. I remember the tremendous amount of pain I was in as I slowly slipped in and out of consciousness. When I came to, it was already gone. My left leg had been amputated below the knee, and my right leg was black with infection.
The doctor came in the room, and told me that he didn't think he would be able to save my right leg, and I would need to have it removed before the infection spread. My strength, and willingness to do what needed to be done surprised me.
Having no idea that the worst part of my ordeal was yet to come, I simply just let it go and lived with my new disability.

Then it happened... I hadn't anticipated the stares, and the look of pity of those around me. Everywhere I went people just felt sorry for me. No one could look me in the eye as they spoke, and it seemed I just made them uncomfortable.

This dream ended, with a reflection of myself in the mirror as I sat in my wheel chair unable to move... It was then that I cried. It was like for the first time since my accident I grieved my loss. 'I'll never be normal again'. I cried, falling to the floor in a big heap.

I woke up sobbing... and still hearing the painful shrieking 'I'll never be normal again' echoing in my ears, as though someone were still screaming it.
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Amputation: To dream that your limbs are amputated, signifies abandoned talents and serious, permanent loss. It indicates your feelings of frustration, powerlessness and helplessness. Sometimes amputation may also represent a situation that you have been ignoring and has finally reached a crisis point. Dreaming that you legs are amputated suggests that you are limited in movements and where you want to go in life.

In tune...

Determined, I played the notes on my flute until it sounded just right. It sounded so beautiful. I asked my sister to guess what song I was playing, giddy with excitement that I had taught myself. I knew my mother would appreciate hearing the song, so I thought I would have her guess as well. It was the song 'My heart will go on' by Celine Dion. It was so familiar to me. It resonated peace, and struck a chord in my heart.
Except... when I played to my mother, after the first few notes my flute wasn't playing properly. It was out of tune, and I was becoming more frustrated. It hurt my ears. I blew and blew... Nothing. Now there was no sound. The next thing I knew I wasn't blowing into a flute, I was blowing up a balloon with a hole in it, so it was never able to fully inflate. Until I gave up trying and let it deflate in my hands.
'Don't worry, we will get you another one.' My mother said, brushing it off.
I was upset because this was no ordinary flute. This flute had such an important significance because it had belonged to my late grandfather, and yet I felt my mother was not the least bit sympathetic towards my great loss. I was left standing speechless and completely misunderstood.
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Symbols: Flute, Song, Ear (playing by ear/listening), Balloon, Family Heirloom, Broken instrument
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Flute: To see musical instruments, denotes anticipated pleasures. To hear or play the flute in your dream, indicates harmony in your life. Everything is going well in your life.

Broken instrument: To dream of playing a musical instrument (other than one you can or do play) forecasts a sudden and surprising change in your lifestyle. A broken musical instrument is a warning to guard your health. For a young woman, this dream foretells for her the power to make her life what she will.

Balloon: A deflated balloon can indicate disappointment or dissatisfaction. Balloons also represent arrogance and an inflated opinion of yourself. Dreaming of a balloon popping symbolizes an unrealized hopes, goals or dreams. It may also represent the stresses in your life. The pressure may be starting to be too great for you to bear.

Heirloom: The things we value most often serve as an extension of our self-awareness and reflects a part of how we feel about ourselves. Therefore, the loss of such an object in a dream is significant.

Melody, song: Songs can be looked at from a spiritual point of view. The song that you dream about may have messages in it that will assist you in solving a problem or will help you to feel better.

Ear Dream Meaning: An ear may be telling you to listen to what you are being told. The advice may be coming from people you know in waking life or from your own inner self. Perhaps you should listen to the voice of your conscience?
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Meaning: Everything is going well in my life. It seems for the first time I don't feel like running away. I've found a place I can call home. I have a wonderful partner and a beautiful little girl.

This is a huge change of lifestyle for me. I've been so accustomed to not giving people the chance to really know me as a person, and so afraid of talking about my feelings, that I keep it all inside. I have a hard time exposing the vulnerability of my emotions. Which would explain why in my dream, I drew myself into a nutshell when my mother simply said we could get another flute. I felt misunderstood, having no idea how to help her understand how I felt, and instead I was wounded deeply with my silence.

Now that I am a mother, I realize the importance of setting an example. I try as hard as I can to be even more honest and open with everyone, including my parents. I don't want to be 50 years old and feel uncomfortable telling my mother and father how much I love them. Or even worse... not having them around to tell them how much I love them, and wishing that I had. I'm learning to listen to that voice, for many years I've ignored, and once again trust myself.