I'll never be normal again

I had no memory of the accident. None whatsoever. I remember the tremendous amount of pain I was in as I slowly slipped in and out of consciousness. When I came to, it was already gone. My left leg had been amputated below the knee, and my right leg was black with infection.
The doctor came in the room, and told me that he didn't think he would be able to save my right leg, and I would need to have it removed before the infection spread. My strength, and willingness to do what needed to be done surprised me.
Having no idea that the worst part of my ordeal was yet to come, I simply just let it go and lived with my new disability.

Then it happened... I hadn't anticipated the stares, and the look of pity of those around me. Everywhere I went people just felt sorry for me. No one could look me in the eye as they spoke, and it seemed I just made them uncomfortable.

This dream ended, with a reflection of myself in the mirror as I sat in my wheel chair unable to move... It was then that I cried. It was like for the first time since my accident I grieved my loss. 'I'll never be normal again'. I cried, falling to the floor in a big heap.

I woke up sobbing... and still hearing the painful shrieking 'I'll never be normal again' echoing in my ears, as though someone were still screaming it.
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Amputation: To dream that your limbs are amputated, signifies abandoned talents and serious, permanent loss. It indicates your feelings of frustration, powerlessness and helplessness. Sometimes amputation may also represent a situation that you have been ignoring and has finally reached a crisis point. Dreaming that you legs are amputated suggests that you are limited in movements and where you want to go in life.